why can i "accept" some horrible casio-looped rap?
because i'm an 80s/nintendo kid.
i can accept rap backbeats because its usually nothing but modern equivalent of 8bit loops.

now, quality of lyrics is a totally different thing...usually they have to be intensely funny and (intentionally)hilarious or insightful/soulful; but usually the soulful ones dont use the midi loops.

anyways. just a little observation as i'm listening to "LMFAO"
[s]

now. i originally was gonna write a term paper on this, but i decided to just draw it instead:

( freud may not have been a fraud )
g'night~ sleep tight~!
[wh?t]

http://eternalmoonwalk.com/

that is all
[s]

i got yelled at for being stupid and trying to call people in the middle of the shift.
totally worth it even though i'm just sitting here, resting from a night of trying to hide tears at work.
i've cued up EO, Moonwalker, and decks of records/cds/mp3s.
i stopped at the store and bought some beer so i could make a "black-and-tan".
it feels so weird to be so sad about someone you never met.

[s]

i need a mashup done SO badly.
who would i go to for such here on FA?

if anyone knows who could or would be themselves be willing to do a decent & short 2-song mashup for me, PLEASE tell me.

if you're wondering what two songs, i require:

Flight of the Conchords' : "Boom King"

AND

Black Eye Peas' : "Boom Boom Pow"

i hear it in my head, yet have no power to mix it myself. it's driving me mad! i've been listening to the songs back to back to back and its NOT helping. if you require payment for such a mix, tell me how much.

please for the love of boom.
[s]

no you guys.
for serious.
leave your vote for who wins here.
i have a follow-up pic in mind, but i really wanted to get feedback.

Carlton or Steve?
you decide.
[s]

tonight, on my way home, i stepped on something squishy on the concrete and almost busted my ass. after regaining my balance i turned around, i was looking around - thinking i had either stepped on someone's wallet or a small bag of bread (yes, that was the first thought in my head).

it ended up being a small white frog...or a furless rabbit. i literally spent the next minute yelling "OMGIMSORRY!!" into the bushes where it'd hopped away.

>_<
[escky]

REALIZATION: whispering is sexy. that's all for today.

bandroids, bandroids
we know what to do
we are the bandroids
we'll play ourselves for you~
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i'm in my bionic six mood again.
so those who have witnessed such a miracle of a show as this need to help me.
if there were a movie, who would play who?


Bionic One: Bruce Wilis (ehh..maybe?)
Mother One: Rene Russo
Rock One: ????
I.Q.: oh...only if Levar Burton were young again...
Karate One: ???? (rain.)
Sport One: Chris Pine (new kirk)
Amadeus Sharp:
Wilbur Sharp (scarab):


[esc]

HEADACHE = because i went on an awesome "harold and kumar-esque" adventure last night through downtown atlanta w/ craig to find the flagship krispy kreme store because he had a bloody craving in the middle of a fucking dungeon raid.

we:
- got lost (because atlanta's fucked up conch shell streets are tardmoded)
- got a free show from a hooker (on accident)
- tired to avoid the cops (there was like one on every street corner!)
- tried to avoid hitting drunk people
- laughed our heads off as someone drove their car over a downed lamp post (caused by one of the prior accidents) and into another lamp post
- somehow managed to acquire the KKs and make it home safe without his roommates noticing that we'd actually stopped playing wow for a minute.


ahem. because of this (and the concentrated sugar), i havent slept. i went to work today and came back home, and got back on the webbernets. my brain hasnt shut down yet. >_< HURTY!

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TOOTHACHE = uhh.. yeah. just that. i think i need to go see a dentist. i havent been to one in an embarrassingly long time. but i hear thats kinda "normal". but yeah. one of my molars is killing me! prolly not helping my headache either. its, like, super sensitive to cold and hardhardhard things now. >_< HURTYY!!

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HEARTACHE = blahblahblah. normal single girl bitchiness. i cant help that though. i just spent almost a week with the most fucking lovey-dovey couple i know and it made me sick (even though, now that i think about it, my disdain is prolly more directed towards them bringing out the worst in each other rather than me actually being jealous of their "love").

i'm back into my "i want a boyfriend, but boys scare the PISS outta me" stage. i usually go through this after healing over from whatever mess just let me go. this is the point where i'd love to get to know a guy, but i'm afraid of his true motives (or the "why the fuck would you want me?!" thought process).

then my mind wanders to him - the one who told me he never loved me. i gave him my all and he shrugged and walked away. it still stings thinking of how vulnerable i can be. how easily i can be broken if someone knows how. he knew how, did so, and left me broken.

stuff like that is why i'm scared of boys. because that is just one example of what's happened before. BLAARGHEAHSHAGHRHGGHH. *cough* i just wanna be happy ya know. i wanna make someone else happy and not have ta deal with anymore of this contrived bs. >_< HURTYYY!!!

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aaaaaaaaaaanyway. i'm gonna try to go to sleep. i'm gonna try to draw tomorrow (been reading a lot of astroboy and ultra man comics), so hopefully something good will come of that. ben thinking of getting another tattoo...but i dont know. my parents dont even know about the 2 i already have XP.

speaking of parents!! in a fit of nerdiness, i'm gonna go see StarTrek again with my dad tomorrow (and hopefully NOT squeal like a school girl everytime chekhov comes on screen and/or spock tongue-wrestles nyota...HOT!!)


yay bonding time!
[escky]

go read this.
if you like good enthralling stories, go read this.

i've been stuck on it for the past week.
i've only got a couple of chapters left.

i think i'm going to die of suspense.
i'm laying in the middle of my living room in pitch dark, not being able to take my blood shot eyes off the screen.

i've cried about 10 times and waited with baited breath to 'turn the page' more times than i can count because of this freakin' thing.

GO!

GO READ 20TH CENTURY BOYS!!
http://www.onemanga.com/20th_Century_Boys

[404]

- Giriko from Soul Eater looks/acts like one of my old exs. its a guilty pleasure watching episode with him in it. He quickly became one of my favorite villains in that show just because of how stupid he was.

- is it a bad thing to have two gay guys tell you that they'd do you (seriously and not just as a "yer cute" compliment)? its a very odd and flattering thing....until you start wondering if you look like a dude.

- being able to have a choice is better than not having any offers, but having to make that choice is nerve-racking. thusly, i'm single again for a good while. not like i'd be good for anyone right now anywho.

- girls and guys are two sides of the same coin - just depends on the equipment and the program supplied. sometimes i wish each side were able to read the other's program. maybe not run it; just read it and understand. (hells, who am i kidding? there are people who run both programs and still comprehend nothing.)

- i wish the human tendency for coupling wasnt there:
- "girl" reason: less heartache and confusion.
- "guy" reason: less to get in the way of what you want.

- i usually accidentally pull aggro and die before getting to the correct target. n00b m00v

:<


rip bea arthur.<3

[escky]

i feel kinda boxed in.
but there's nowhere i can think around here and still have peace of mind.
nowhere is safe.
i have to keep it all to myself.

[escky]

just keeping track.
dont mind me.

42_souls

Read table going this direction >>>

01.	"Give Me Something To Believe In"	02.	"Something Sexy About The Rain"	03.	"No Worries, Darling!"	04.	"Set Me Free"	05.	"Leave Me Be"	06.	"Falling Into Your Gravity"
07.	"I Drank 'Till I Stumbled"	08.	"The Sound Of Someone Promising They'll Never Go"	09.	"Slowly Rambles On And On"	10.	"Succeeding With Talent"	11.	"Every Move You Make"	12.	"I Feel Eternity Most Intimately"
13.	"Twist Entangle Dissolve"	14.	"A Mysterious Sea-Bed Of Love"	15.	"If I"	16.	"Don't Eat The Daisies"	17.	"I Consult My Pillow"	18.	"Should And Should Not "
19.	"But You Will Be Safe In My Arms"	20.	"Dreams May Not Come True"	21.	"You Plus Me Is Bad News"	22.	"Name Your Poison"	23.	"She Only Comes To Me In My Dreams"	24.	"Both Are Satisfied"
25.	"From June To May"	26.	"A Thousand Sugar Stars"	27.	"I Live To Let You Shine"	28.	"What I Wanted Was A Plastic Heart"	29.	"Pretend You Are Strong "	30.	"Always Contradicting Myself"
31.	"I'm Happy, Yet What Am I Saying?"	32.	"Our Breath Rose In The Cold Like A Hundred Souls Escaping"	33.	"Swallowed By The Guilt Of This"	34.	"I Want You. I Don't Know If I Need You, But, Ooh, I'd Die To Find Out."	35.	"As Damned As He Seems"	36.	"Only Fools Rush In"
37.	"A Little Less Bark, A Little More Bite"	38.	"I Knew What I Was Feeling, But What Was I Thinking?"	39.	"There's No Telling What I'M Gonna Do"	40.	"I Want Amazing Moments"	41.	"Everywhere I Turn To Begins A New Beginning, But Never Finds A Finish"	42.	"Would You Go With Me?"

the 42 soul challenge

i'm thinking about using this thing again.
so i'm cleaning out my friend's list thingie.
i'm probably gonna only clean out communities that i do visit anymore, but if i remove you and you still wanna be friendededed, please tell me ^_^;;

dont mean to offend, yo.
much love
[404]

back from the concert:
ears, forever-ringing and throat, ripped to shreds.

another one of those beautiful pains.

when the bass is so heavy that it almost cracks your ribcage, thats when you know the music is tastes perfect.

that was sexy.
[s]

later.
i'm off to see pendulum agian.
werd.

[s]

Letters to the Anonymous Public:



1 -
i'm tired of stepping on eggshells. i know where we stand, but recent events had confused and upset me, so i ended up saying things that i didnt mean to say like that. i'm sorry i hurt your feelings by bringing her up. it was the only way i could describe what i felt you were doing to me. i didnt mean it as a personal jab; just as a level ground of understanding - and i failed. i hope things can stop being weird soon and that we can still be the good friends we were. i'm really tried of stepping on eggshells.

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2-
we really are two different types of people, but i wish i could get to know you better. last time i saw you, things were different. you seemed forcibly distant. i think i know why. i considered it too; dont wanna cause any waves amongst friends. it kinda makes me sad; cause i was about to say "sure. why not?".

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3 -
sorry to do that so crudely and impersonal. i just tend to stumble over my words in person. a bit cowardly? yes. cold and sleazy? i doubt it. and whomever told you such things needs to be taught their place and know that things arent always from one perspective.

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4 -
i hope things are going well for you and the missus. it sucks that i hardly ever get a chance to chat with you anymore - our schedules just dont line up, being in a different time zone and all. maybe one day i'll come visit. things were just too awkward to do it any sooner.

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5 -
i wish you could escape and be happy. i hate to think of you trudging through life now, just trying to make it to a new day. i hate that you're lonely and that the only escape you have is online. you need a vacation. i sometimes wonder if i bought a plane ticket for you, would you use it?

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6 -
please come back to us. not like anything is particularly wrong, but you know you always change when this type of thing happens, and its not always for the better. maybe things will be different in a couple of months when situations change, but it'll go right back to it in the end, i'm sure. if only you could see.



[love, s.]

so if i self-publish / publish this bloody comic idea within the next 4 months, i can get into SDCC for free....

HOW THE FUX DO I PUBRISH COMIX?!
[s]